kingdom dreamer

It’s been a week… since I started my “journey” at Emory. Adjusting to the new environment, new home, new people, new school was a bit of journey but it surely has been a blessing. I am the type of person who has to know what’s around, what’s ahead, and what’s coming. Whenever we had a family trip to elsewhere, the only phrase that came from my tongue was, “how long does it take to get there?”— Not just, “are we there yet?” but “When would that be happening?” Without learning what I will face during the trip ride, I was frustrated. Even, I have to know the endings first before I would watch a movie— just so I won’t be too curious. I guess I do not like the tension of not knowing.

Although I am not completely immersed in this new surroundings andI  have no clue what lies ahead, I am calm. Because God is with me. I am sure I would become so frustrated at some point, but I know that He will endure me, guide me, and strengthen me. Because God is ever faithful, I can attempt to remain faithful in Him. Thanks to Him, I no longer have to worry about the present and future but only hope for the eternity.  My life is not about me, but it is about Jesus and for God (& His people. not just me). Therefore, I don’t have to know all things, what’s expected, what’s ahead; I just have to know that He is near, in me and with me. 

There are couple of things that God’s been revealing to me over the past two weeks: that I need to be in the presence of God (this means that I have to find Him even in the midst of studies and struggles to find new community where I can share my journey with Him) and that I have to trust Him. I know that God continuously wants to talk to me (and even now He is talking to me, I am just not listening actively) and i am so thankful for what He will be speaking to me in this “journey” with Him.

My prayer for this week is that I would remain faithful in Him, have priority in Him, live life for and with Him, and that He would show me His will for my journey at Emory. Ah, I am excited!!!

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williszhang:

“Do not be afraid”

God’s heart: 2 Peter 3:9 NLT

9 The Lord isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think. No, he is being patient for your sake. He does not want anyone to be destroyed, but wants everyone to repent.

Hosea 2:14

But then I will win her back once again. I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her there.

lately… it’s been a maze.  cycles of questions of ambiguity about the future.. don’t even know what is going to end up happening. hazy future, uncertainty, doubts, concerns,.. on and on. consistently I cry out to God, what do you want me to do? my heart and my mind are set, but my circumstances aren’t. now what Lord..? 

And today He spoke. somehow I had some time to spare and stopped by a church nearby. I sat at the sanctuary, all by myself, in the darkness- looking at the cross… crying out, Abba. 

And He said, “Why are you afraid? You have so little faith!” … 

Then He got up and rebuked the circumstances, and suddenly there was a great calm.

Matthew 8:26 —

Thank you Daddy.